Monday, February 20, 2012


It's been a while since I posted here and thought an update was over due.

Eleven days ago, we received a phone call that threw my family into the midst of tragedy. The journey actually began four and a half months ago when my mother underwent open heart surgery. At age 87 we knew it was going to be a rough recovery, but had no idea just how difficult.

Mom came through the surgery well, but when a staph infection set in she had to fight for her life and has spent months in a nursing home. Always beside her was her husband Orville, better known as Trigger(a nickname given to him as a child). Trigger was there every day, helping in anyway he could.

Saturday, the 11th, he died from heart failure. It was not what we'd expected. He's always been so strong and healthy, but with the stress of my mother's illness and his age (85) it was possibly too much for him. And we must remember God's sovereignty, His plan--something He understands even when we don't. It is not for us to question, but Trigger's entrance into heaven leaves behind so many who love him.

This week as been filled with practical necessities, memorials, time with friends and family and time to honor Trigger and his life, and an effort to help my mother make necessary transitions. We've made arrangements to move her closer to family in Roseburg, Oregon while in the midst of memorial services, grief, and illness. We've been packing up their lives into boxes and will be heading south two days from now.

Our hearts are heavy, Mom is trying hard to do what she must. This is extremely painful for us all, yet we are thankful for God's presence. We are hanging onto the Lord's hand and moving forward one step at a time.

Your prayers are needed, especially for Trigger's son, Marshall and my mother, Elsa. Please hold them up in prayer.

Bless you.

Grace and peace to you from God,


Wednesday, February 01, 2012

MAKING A DIFFERENCE - Meet Kelli Standish

Kelli, for years you’ve been one of my heroes. We met, online, when my agent suggested I contact you for help with my website. You did a major renovation on the site, but you were also a huge help to me—guiding my steps as I moved into a more public domain. Your wit, style, perceptive eye and passion to help others brought my site to life and helped rev up my writing career. Thank you.

Bonnie, thank you so much for featuring me on your blog.

And believe me, it's been a privilege to serve you and be a part of your cheer squad as you charge forward in your calling as an author:)

I'm thrilled to introduce you to my readers and for those who already know you, they may discover something new. Welcome.

Can you share with readers why you started PulsePoint Design, and what your vision has been for the company?

In 2002, I was bedridden with a mystery illness. I’d been to twenty-one different specialists, been hospitalized several times, and no one could figure out what was wrong. I was literally wasting away to nothing, my organs were shutting down, and I couldn’t even keep water in my system.

Meanwhile, my heart was consumed with a longing for long-term service in Africa. And yet, there I was, confined to my bed, useless to man and beast! Being a type-A, and quite Irish, I found my helpless state 100% unacceptable. So I asked the Lord, what can I do? Who do you intend for me to serve now? How can I step up and make a difference despite my illness?

The result was PulsePoint Design. At the time, all I had was a dial-up Internet connection, a very old version of Photoshop, and a vision for the support and encouragement of Christian authors.

But if we bring our small abilities to God and dedicate them to the service of others, He will multiply them:).

You and God together have accomplished much. I'm grateful to have been one of the beneficiaries of that partnership.

Our walk with the Lord is never boring. Sometimes what he asks of us seems beyond our capabilities and often times it falls outside our personal plans. Recently you received shocking news that changed the course of your life in a major way. Can you tell us a little about this new direction your taking? And how do you feel about what God’s asking of you?

My husband is a reservist, who has been out of active duty for more than eleven years. In December, we received notice that he'd been called back into active duty. We are being transferred to a military base in the Middle East for a long-term assignment.

He’ll work in a high-security-clearance post, but we have no other details, because the military can’t disclose them until shortly before departure. All we know is that we’re being transferred to an Arab state where bandwidth is monitored, burkas are standard issue, and electricity is more expensive than Europe.

This has been a difficult time for us. Personally, professionally, emotionally, and spiritually. We're preparing to sell or store most of our belongings (we're limited to several suitcases for this deployment), rent out our home, find new families for our beloved animals, leave behind our friends and the marriage ministry we lead at church... and most difficult of all, shut down PulsePoint Design, and say goodbye to the clients I've loved like my own heart for the past decade.

In seasons of grief like this, all we can say is: God gives, God takes away. It is His call. I gave Him the right to do whatever He chooses with me when I dedicated my life to Him. Even if He chooses to allow my entire life on this earth to be riddled with heartache, I still get the better end of the deal: Eternity in a land of no tears, no pain, and the glory of finally, finally understanding Him.

To understand it all--that will be glorious.

I know when I ask this question you will cringe, out of humility, but I must ask. Those who know you see Kelli Standish as an exceptional human being. However, becoming extra ordinary requires a price. Can you share a bit about your background and how you became the person so many love and admire?

Hoot! Me? Exceptional? I've got you all fooled! I owe all credit to my good friends, the Ine's: Maybelline, Visine, and Caffeine:)

In all seriousness, though, we can't be any kind of exceptional unless we've wrestled with anguish, wrestled with our giants, wrestled with God, and come out humbled, carrying hard-won truth, and walking with a limp. If limping makes me exceptional then I'm proud to bear the title.

My background was a difficult one. My father was a white supremacist and quite abusive. He taught me to hate every race but the “Aryan” race, and told me my calling was to “take the world back for Christ by bloodshed” starting with blacks and Jews, and moving on from there.

From the time I was 11, I lived in foster homes. When I was 17, I dealt with a broken engagement, by 18 I had joined a cult. In my early 20s, I married my husband, after a man who claimed to be a prophet told me I would miss God's entire will for my life if I didn't marry the person he suggested.

Although my husband is beloved to me now, at the time, I was not in love with him at all, so you can imagine the challenges we've faced over our 13-year marriage:)

I've had my heart broken and my dreams crushed more times than I can count, I've battled the pain of betrayal and loss, friends who weren't, trust destroyed.. you know, the normal erosion you deal with in a fallen world. But this is what I've learned:

Life and loss and destructive people can only make you a victim if you allow them to do so. My fierce passion through every season is this: Lord, teach me something. Make me a safer person for others. Make me richer in spirit. Give me a glimpse of Your pain, of Your passion, of Your character. Grant me full hands, at the end of this dark tunnel, so that when I come out on the other side I have a purer heart to offer you, and more compassion and wisdom to offer others.

And He does. He does.

Words of wisdom for us all to hang onto.

Do you have anything more you would like to share with readers? And as you follow the leading of The Father, what are some of your specific prayer needs?

My prayer first and foremost is for His blessing and encouragement for the authors of the Christian writing community, particularly our clients (because they're the ones I love the most:). I pray He raises up new champions and advocates, to cheer for Christian authors, to walk beside them and lift their hearts, and to fight for their best. That is the prayer that keeps me up at night right now.

That, and a safe home for our animals, who I love more than anything. Leaving them is going to be very difficult.

As for anything else to share, my best encouragement is this: wherever you are, whoever you are, live nobly, love deeply, and find your people. Find the group--small or large--that God has handpicked for you. Find the ones you are meant to serve, encourage, protect, and champion. Find them, and let God love them through you.

Thank you. Thank you, Kelli. I know many are and will continue to pray for you.

Again, you have inspired me. But I am left with a huge question -- What will I do without you? I already know your answer -- God will provide.

Much grace and peace to you.