I'm kind of stunned, actually. The last few years we've moved from one of our houses to another several times. It feels like we've been playing musical houses. And I don't really like the game. But family circumstances make it necessary and it's not a big sacrifice, but it is a lot of work.
I like the other house (the main house). It's the place where I raised my kids. It's bigger and it feels cozy.
This morning I'm feeling a bit undone. There's so much to do and everyone in my family is busy, including me. I've got a book that needs editing along with a whole list of other responsibilities. And it all feels like too much.
Yesterday I read a note on Facebook meant for a friend of mine who is undergoing cancer treatment. The comment said, "In order to eat an elephant you have to do it one bite at a time." I've heard this before, but the reminder is a good one. I feel like I'm standing before that elephant.
I've discovered that as I get older little things tend to throw me off balance (figuratively and in reality). I get to feeling overwhelmed easily. I'm sure part of it has to do with my physical disabilities. I get frustrated. I used to be the roll up your sleeves and get to work type of person. I was in "charge" of my life, and these days I have to relinquish that role and abdicate to others. I'm dependent on other people and in all honesty it sometimes makes me feel kind of useless.
When I think on that I wonder if maybe that's exactly where God wants for me right now. I need to learn to place my life in His hands.
God is clear. He tells me without hesitation that He has a plan for my life and it is a plan to bless me and not harm me. And He tells me that I can do all things through Him. I believe Him. And it is my heart's desire to live according to that belief. However, I must admit that it is easier said than done. Sheesh, sometimes I wonder if I'll ever grow up in my faith.
I'm going to give it a try and do my best to put aside my frustration and rest in the Lord. But I could really use your prayers. Thanks so much. I'll be in touch again, from my new office next door.
Grace and peace to you from God,
Bonnie03
