Wednesday, October 24, 2012
Thoughts For Today: Feeling Overwhelmed
I'm kind of stunned, actually. The last few years we've moved from one of our houses to another several times. It feels like we've been playing musical houses. And I don't really like the game. But family circumstances make it necessary and it's not a big sacrifice, but it is a lot of work.
I like the other house (the main house). It's the place where I raised my kids. It's bigger and it feels cozy.
This morning I'm feeling a bit undone. There's so much to do and everyone in my family is busy, including me. I've got a book that needs editing along with a whole list of other responsibilities. And it all feels like too much.
Yesterday I read a note on Facebook meant for a friend of mine who is undergoing cancer treatment. The comment said, "In order to eat an elephant you have to do it one bite at a time." I've heard this before, but the reminder is a good one. I feel like I'm standing before that elephant.
I've discovered that as I get older little things tend to throw me off balance (figuratively and in reality). I get to feeling overwhelmed easily. I'm sure part of it has to do with my physical disabilities. I get frustrated. I used to be the roll up your sleeves and get to work type of person. I was in "charge" of my life, and these days I have to relinquish that role and abdicate to others. I'm dependent on other people and in all honesty it sometimes makes me feel kind of useless.
When I think on that I wonder if maybe that's exactly where God wants for me right now. I need to learn to place my life in His hands.
God is clear. He tells me without hesitation that He has a plan for my life and it is a plan to bless me and not harm me. And He tells me that I can do all things through Him. I believe Him. And it is my heart's desire to live according to that belief. However, I must admit that it is easier said than done. Sheesh, sometimes I wonder if I'll ever grow up in my faith.
I'm going to give it a try and do my best to put aside my frustration and rest in the Lord. But I could really use your prayers. Thanks so much. I'll be in touch again, from my new office next door.
Grace and peace to you from God,